Beautifulgirl

I have always been the person that has always been the follower. I am still that way today. But I am trying to break free of old habits and make new ones. I know that I have been on my weight loss journey for quite sometime. But I do not believe that when I actually started I was TRULY ready to commit and make the decision to change my life. Now, I believe I am ready to make the changes that I need to so that I can be healthier, happier, and like what I see in the Mirror.

When I first started my journey I was very sceptial on whom I told. The reason being is that I am good at lieing to myself & failing. I started to work out last week, with my wii. I bought this new game call Active. I am in love with it. I am very happy. I know that I shouldn’t be afraid to tell the loved ones what I am doing, but I am afriad to fall off the wagon again. It is very hard to make the concious decision to make the right choice. I never realized how hard it was until this last week. I am watching what I eat, trying not to consume to much pop & sugar drinks. I am trying to enjoy water better, but water can only go so far. I do drink flavored water along with just plain old water. I don’t want to drink to much of the flavored, because I am trying to burn calories not gain more.  I am slowly making changes and I am working hard. There are times when I just want to go to sleep and not work out. I had that this week & let me tell you i regreat it so much. To think i could have burned about 150+ calories, but instead i chose to go and take a nap. I never really thought of my decision until after and what they mean till now. To tell you the truth I am not liking it at all.  At least I am being honest & learning from it. Only time will tell what will become of me with my choices.

The other day when I was my day off I was proud of myself that I worked out twice. That was Tuesday, I am still feeling it today. But I know that it will be for the best in the end. For me to be in my beautiful white dress & feeling as beautiful as the dress. I can not wait. That is what is keeping me from quiting. My wedding. I don’t want to be in a size 18+ and look bigger then I am . I haven’t actually set that as a goal in my mind, becuase for some reaosn seeing the goal doesn’t work for me.  I have been engaged for what a year and a half now, and it still hasn’t hit me that my wedding should be an amazing goal to reach. Maybe once I start to see result and belive in myself things will start to feel more real. I just have to remember One day at a time. I have amazing people in my corner, I just have to make the decsion today and keep making that same decision everyday.

xoxo

The weight has been coming off nicely. I am not down 15 pounds. That is amazing! I am so proud of myself. Now I see what it means to feel like you need to keep going once you have started. I feel that I have made a small accomplishment and now it is time to keep going to so I can have a huge accomplishment.  My huge accomplishment is going to lose 60-65 more pounds and keep it off. I know there are going to be times when I am going to “fall” off the weagon, but if i remember the little accomplishments I have made I will have the strangth to get back on and continue in my journey. If for some reason I “fall” off and I can not get back on I have a wonderful friend that I can turn to. Her name is Krystal. We actually met through work. I love this girl to death. She has been through so much and needs a support team. I am so there for her and we have a lot to talk about and it is awesome that I have a new friend. We actually decided that we are going to start working out together on a regular basis. It is so awesome! It is going to be hard at times because I work in the morning and she does work at nights. But I think we can figure it out. It is all about getting to the goal which is to lose weight and be healthy. I am so uber excited. (I <3 that word)

Until next time.

xoxo

I am very tired today. I have worked a few days in a row and it has taken a lot out of me. As you know I work in fast food, and I feel I have been working harder this week then I have in a while. The weather is getting colder, but the sun is out and it is still beautiful. The leaves are changing and look beautiful also. I should get out and go for a walk, but I did just got over being sick and I can not afford to get sick again.

I am doing very well on my weight loss journey and I am very proud of myself. I am finding that I am working harder to get to where I want to be. I has taken a while, but I know that I need to take it one day at a time, and try not to get discouraged. That is easier said then done though, right?  Plus, I need to be confident in myself and not let my negativity get to me, or at least try not to let it get to me. I am battling this one, but I am slowly getting better! Like I said one day at a time.

Until Next Time

xoxo

OMG!!!! I am really under 200lbs! I could not believe it. I thought i was just from being sick, but i seriuolsy lost that weight!!! I am so uber excited right now. I feel like working out!  but no time right now.  I can not believe that I have made this goal. I alwasy thought it would never get here. It has taken a lot of work and determination to get here and i am so excited!

until later

xoxo

Hey everyone! Tought i would let you guys know i am still alive and here for keeping track of my weight loss.

I have had a few rough weeks here. I did get very sick and couldn’t keep anything down, i was suprised i could keep apple juice down. I am still recovering from it. But even though i was sick my weight went down to 197.5. I know that it was do to i couldn’t keep anything down and i was getting dehydrated a bit, but i was still excited that i was under 200lbs!

Still watching what i eat. I know that if i started to work out the weight would start to come off more, but still no motivation. I am starting to get a little bit and do some here and there, but it is nothing extroinary.  One day at a time i guess!

until next time

xoxo

I am having a heck of a time getting motivated to exercise. I am doing really good at the eatting part. I am drinking more water and less pop. I have not totally cut pop out of the picture, but gradually. I am just discouraged at myself that I for some reason can not get motivated to exercise. I was so motivated this morning, and then when i get home to do it, I don’t want to. Maybe I am putting it to high on a petastile and then letting it fall I am not sure.

Well some people are doing weight watchers at work, and I am thinking about doing it to. My mom did it a while ago and lost 50lbs, but since she retired and had surgery she has gained over half that back. So i was hoping that she would do it with me to get us both motivated, but i guess that if i do it I am on my own. Maybe I can get my soon to be mother in law to do it with me.  I know that I can not do it just at home, i need the meetings. So when i brought it up to my mom she said that she would help. plus, i am thinking of joining a gym that just came to my town. Gotta get the details on that, Hopefully i can do both to get better results.

I am serioulsy hopeing i get out of this funk that i am in about exercising. I need to get out of it, but who knows what will happen. I am taking it one day at a time and not regreating yesterday, because today is a new day.

so until next time….

xoxo

It is a new day! I am not going to fuss over my falls for yesterday! I am going to start again today, today is a brand new day. Thank you to all that supported me and reminded me that it was one day that is put in the past and that there is a new day tomorrow. I am getting ready to go to work. Finishing up my breakfest right now and have to grab my lunch before i leave. I am glad that i am taking lunch on a daily basis, becuase i don’t want to feel all that grease going down my throat (i work at McDonalds). I feel so much better when i do not eat that food! So a few points for me.

Everyone remember that todsay is Stand Up For a Cure! You should watch it tonight at 8p.m Eastern time. I believe that if we stick together to find a cure we will find it.

until next time… xoxo

I am feeling really guilty right now. I have didn’t eat very good today. I wish I could just throw it all up, but I would feel sick and probably get into trouble. I ate eggs and bacon with orange juice for breakfast. Then for lunch I had burger king…soo bad. Then dinner we had chicken enchiladas.  Then like 2 cans of pop. I am so horrible today, and I have no idea why. I just feel really guilty, oh and you can not forget the nice bowl of moose tracks ice cream I just had. Ughh! Why am I so week? Why can I not be in control? Why do I let my hunger and everything control what I put into my mouth? Why can’t I get the concept Mind over Matter??? Questions I will never know the answer too!

Right now I am feeling pretty proud of myself. I have been so tired for the last few days and i still did a bit of working out. I worked on the wii from about 5;50 till 8:25 when Dan got here. I did DDR & the Sports. I felt good to do it, and i was glad that no one was around to watch me. I think i get to distracted when others are around.  I was glad that i did all of that it felt good doing it.  I know that I am going to feel it tomorrow, because I already hurt. But hopefully it will not be so bad after a good night sleep. I could use one of those sincei have been working since thursday of last week and have to work till friday of this week. I can not wait untill 4pm friday i am going to be out of there so fast! But my days off are going to go by fast, becuase we are having a party for my nephew, because it is his going away/open house party.  so until tomorrow when i feel good about myself again…

xoxo

I had an awesome time on my vacation and I am glad that we got away!  It seriously is what we need since we have been under so much stress at our jobs. It was an awesome trip, even thought it was not very far away. I love when we go camping, even thought it sucked that we were all alone the whole trip, it was still nice. it was our time with no interuptions!  We did a lot of our own cooking. I think we went out a couple of times when we were already out and i think we had onlye 2 unhealhty meals and we were gone for 6 days.

Dan bought me a bike for my birthday and I road it the other day and it was not very far but it took my breath away. Then I cam home and played the Wii! I played for like an hour and it worked a lot. I defantly felt it the next day, actually i am just now starting not to feel it. And then I went and bought Dance Dance Revolution! that defantly it already a work out, and i haven’t done it very much because dan usualy takes it away from me so that he can do it. 

Too bad I can not lose any weight. I think I have come to the conclusion that my fat is permently attached to my body and won’t let go.

 till next time

xoxo